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solidão, autocuidado e resistência de uma travesti negra e gorda para além da pandemia

Abstract

This text brings reports recorded in diaries and social networks publications about my black and fat “travesti” experiences during the social detachment process imposed by the COVID-19 pandemic in the months of March, April, May and June 2020. Having as objective: understand how the dimensions of loneliness, self-care and resistance permeate transvestigating and/or black and/or fat corporealities and subjectivities beyond the COVID-19 pandemic. Cartography is the methodological rhizome chosen for this text, because it allows to combine different experiences in the affective map construction presented in this text from triggers. From the triggers presented, it is clear that despite the isolation, contact with the social world through digital media brings painful news, especially because the social asymmetries imposed by cis / hetero / white / thin / normative structures produce a body necropolitics dissidents. Paradoxically, social networks will also be a way of articulating powers that create life during the pandemic through the creation of support networks between “travesti” and/or black and/or fat women. Self-care in a personal and collective dimension is understood as a tool capable of thinking about intersectionalities based on differences, giving rise to new forms of social organization. In an affirmative way of the black and fat transvestite experiences, it concludes with the decree: I am not going to die.

 Keywords: Pandemic. Loneliness. Resistance. Fat black “travesti”.